Special

Caught running away again
Thought by now I'd figured out
Hell of my undoing
Desperation, feel alive

I don't wanna be special (just tell them a lie)
I don't wanna be different (just to stay alive)
You just wanna hear my screams (just to feel alive)
Bring me back to my body

Is it in vain to think I'm worthy
Of standing for something (last life, damn, what?)
More than a body (damn, what? This the best lie)
I am nothing (last life, damn, what?)
I am everything (you could tell by the look on your face)

Failure finding (last life, damn, what?)
Balance in philosophy (fresh air, now you're runnin' away)
I am nothing (last life, damn, what?)
I am everything (damn, what? This the biggest lie)

I don't wanna be special (just tell them a lie)
I don't wanna be different (just to stay alive)
You just wanna hear my screams (just to feel alive)
Bring me back to my body

Didn't really wanna be myself
Now I never wanna see myself
Didn't really wanna be myself
Now I never wanna see myself

And I wanted to scream all the things that you do
When you're talkin' to me and manipulatin'
And I know I'm no angel, I think that's okay
I need you to feel something, sick and tired of waitin'

I don't wanna be special (just tell them a lie)
I don't wanna be different (just to stay alive)
You just wanna hear my screams (just to feel alive)
Bring me back to my body