Misery

I dropped

I devoted myself
Blindly, for one's life
A well-aware choice
Knowing this free fall was right
I dropped

I sacrificed
Everything at stake, my own wellness
I fell apart
Broken and weak (Broken and weak)

I held
And stood still, ripping through my fragile ground
And I held
Knowing I was losing the most of me

When everything is gray
And your guts scream misery
When you can't handle looking at others
You can't deal with their happiness
It's so dark here

I barely recognize my own substance
These blood-red eyes, this grim expression
That can't be my own
That can't be my own

I lost track
Time is holding me in this confused state
Playing a silly game
Has it been weeks? (Has it been weeks?)

The clock
Has been stopping its course between minutes
Stretching
Every moment to make it last, to make it hurt

I devoted myself
Blindly, for one's life
I lay down
Waiting for my body to lose consciousness

These endless days
These permanent nights
Steal all my heart
Steal all my soul
I'm burning within

I haven't seen the sun in days
I crawl around this odd place
That has no silence, that never sleeps
In this place that never leaves your mind at peace

The fragility
My existence

Trusting
My own lies
Believing
It will all be fine

It's so dark in here
So dark

I haven't left my bed in days
Curled up, cold, in a shut in
I entered a slumber, a deep sleep
Can I hang in until tomorrow?