Black Lazarus

I been away from my place of balance
From the lakes that carried my mistakes and challenge
And it's safe to say I had vacate the palace
And I'm not sure where to place this malice
And my old friends keep on reaching out
Like we keep hearing you got demons how
Like it's so clear what they speaking bout
And my appearance has them freaking out
Like is that fear through their veneer
Can't hide their leers as they seeping out
And the cavalier as they start to peer
At the memories that im bringing out
But it's too late for them to even see the meaning
I been living since I said that I was leaving
My brother would have found me slumped out
On a round couch in a dark house
With my bloated body and my lungs drowned
With my twisted fingers like I'm thugged out
I'm beside the table where the drugs found
But I'm in euphoria like I'm up now
If he
Pray for me
But ain't nobody here saving me
And the only death I fear is painlessly
And I've made it out of clear agency
If he
prayed for me
The only way to live is dangerously
Cause for every second chance
Angels wave their hands
Devils make their dance
I just feel like
I'm automatic I just go-go gadget
On this mobile planet that I'm on
And any prophylactic on an open bandage
It's just more dramatic than it shows
And if they open hand me or they poke and stab me
I'll just close my eyelids I am so dramatic
And my deep regret is I don't know my body
But I'll keep revenge it helps me hold my malice
I don't seek amends and I don't know they daddy
If we speak again then we've spoken got me
I'm so disconnected from my soul
I'll probably have to reconnect it by a sort of proxy
I will pick it up from any stone or concrete
That it's wasting on as the day begun
What would happen if I went like George or Michael
Sorry baby I was late to your recital
Novacane serenade me so delightful
Open baby
Don't close it baby
Up in the bed with a poker face
And I cannot feel my tongue from the copper taste
And so when I hear the drums from the lower place
Say goodnight to my love as I go away
They keep hyping me up in the wrongest ways
Said Tonight is the night they were sort of waiting
Screaming back at the shadows like go away
Bitch I might lose the battle but not today
And for every second chance
I just wave my hands
The devils make their dance
Fucking hyprocrite
Why the fuck am I complaining here
When there's kids in Gaza with a missing father
The bongos in Congo don't hit as hard
South Sudan needs a plan man don't get me started
And for everything fucked that we pick apart
I just fall to my knees with the disregard
As they
Pray for me
But ain't no anybody here saving me
And the only death I fear is painlessly
And I've made it out of clear agency
As they
Pray for me
The only way to live is dangerously
Cause for every second chance
Devils wave their hands
Angels make their dance
I just feel like it's fucked
Nobody pray for me
Nobody's saving me
Nobody pray for me
Nobody's saving me